Monday, October 25, 2010
WHAT IS THE FARKING PROBLEM WITH MY BROTHER????
make fun of me still can
but then say my results are like all fail is totally like, excuse me?
i admit my results are not up to standard.
but so?
at least i put in my effort right?
not like i didn't
if i did not put in effort to study, i don't expect good results.
never mind all that.
well,
i am going to show my brother in his face that i can do better than him
even if i got more subjects than him and stuffs.
well, how cares?
i am going to show him who is the one who failed.
not me but him.
sad uh.
wtf is with everything around me.
everything is going wrong. -.-
nothing seems to fit in perfectly.
like everything is misplaced or misfit.
nothing is like fairytale and drama
where everything goes perfectly.
nothing goes wrong.
well...
somehow i figured out that my life is like when i am kayaking.
where when i started is like wobbling and shaking and needed someone to stabilise me.
then when i face a problem is like when i capsized.
needed someone to 'rescue' me up.
get all the problem out of my boat(life)
and i continue my journey.
the wind shall be my obstacle which causes me to take the wrong route.
while the coaches will help me to get back the 'correct' route.
well.
i am pretty sure that is just another imagination of mine.
and nothing is real...
Labels: another fairytale....
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2:56:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 19, 2010
don't you just feel weird when romance steps into your studies?
and your studies start to drop and everything around you is filled with romance and love and stuffs?
well.
i just hate it.
now SA2 had just pass and my results are just... ahem.
so ya
and everything, i realised is about romance.
but anyway i should buck up right?
so ya
HAHAHAH
smile more uh. then happier. :DDDDDDD
so what romance is in the air and stuffs around you is,somehow, is related to romance?
studies shouldn't be affected right?
gonna practise more and ya.
and thats all i guess.
i will write more next time uh. ^^
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6:00:00 PM
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
i dont noe why i feel super leftout
like i dun fit into the class....
and like my friends are ignoring me....
and my studies are starting to drop.....
is it that i am losing myself too?
like i am going to be not myself?
i really dun noe what to do....
should i dun care about it and carry on wif my life?
or reflect bout it and change myself to fit into the group?
i feel so weird when my friends ignores me...
i feel so weird when i feel that i dun fit into the group...
i dunno whether i can cope wif this....
or maybe all this is me and my stupid brain think out one....
i feel so weird
but anyway this whole thing is bothering me....
should i go for conselling?
or should i talk to my teacher bout this?
maybe this is reall my own stupid brain think out one......
i hate myself....
why must i be born in this world.....
like what my friend had said in chinese:'i am extra'...
Labels: me and my stupid brain
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6:25:00 PM
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
HEllos....
long time no see.....
miss my own blog sia
nothing to say.
my whole September holiday is packed with remedials and supplementarys sia.
no freedom....
no fun
no nothing!!!!( thats inportant.)
now i am hooked up to facebook!!!
play pet society( which i am sick to it now), resturant city(kinda lame to me) and country story(even lamer than restuarant city....)
but those are to make me fun which i dun find it fun to play with.
now i am speechless.....
i miss those primary 1 feelings
like when you went for the first day of school, your mother or father stands outside the classroom to wait for you for your recess to come to see you.
sometimes you also see some of your classmates crying for their mothers or fathers cause they miss them.
now you grow up liao, you see those you find it that it is very lame. and if you think about it, you had already been through those.
and if you see your own primary 1 pictures you might find it cute or retarded as you carry those big bags at your bag and bump into people.
but that time you dunno how to say sorry, thank you, excuse me and please, is always your parents help you to say and you would look at them with a innocent face.
they always say never mind or nothing happened or dun be scared mum is here with you or all three.
now is the time to repay them too.......
gtg
bye
see next time
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3:51:00 PM
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Monday, March 9, 2009
i always forget what is my blog's name sia....
haix
help me.....
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9:14:00 PM
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Friday, October 24, 2008
Few days ago, something happened to my family...
it was terrible!!
My sister was scolded by my mum, and so was like crying like siao.
the next day she went to school, i thought she is not coming home.
i could not SMS her or call her as my hp was like going crazy and her phone don't know wat happen lahz
then i was like at home crying like crazy.
when she reached home, i asked her everything that i want to know.
i thought that i have lost a family member, a shoulder to cry on, a person to talk to.
but it was a lie to me....
and there are feelings that i feel now...
i feel alone in this dark, cold room.
no one to talk to , no one to lean on.
juz alone...
it felt like i dun have a soul
it is gone,gone for good...
i feel like dying, the air is cold...
My hopes of thing that i have been thinking of ,is gone, gone for good too...
i thought that i was special, will not feel alone....
but it was a lie, a very big lie...
maybe me myself must find it.......
well that was when i had a fight with my brother...
well let's talk about in school.... well nothing to write about that.
so goodbye.
i will be gone for good....
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2:40:00 PM
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Thursday, October 2, 2008
It has been long that i had blog....today we celebrated Children's Day.Mr hairul sang us 3 songs..He sing very funny and good.he also gave us presents...then we were like laughing like crazy....damn funny...well nothing to say lehz coz nothing much that make me laugh lehz byez....Dream of me....=DDDDD
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4:20:00 PM
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